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yargh!

So, I haven't written here in um. A really long time, actually. And I need to have SOMEWHERE to write, because my brain is on the verge of imploding.

Since last time!

I took a leave of absence from work to deal with brain-stuff, Jake and I broke up, I went BACK to work and turned everything around and am doing quite well now, I'm seeing someone who is absolutely...amazing, my roomie is moving out October 1st, and I've applied for a position within my company in Charlotte, NC in the hopes of moving down south ASAP.

It's really the last bit that has my brain imploding, quite frankly.

I know I don't want to be in CT anymore - I haven't for a few years now. I hate winter (after Christmas at any rate), the people are...well, nothing against CT, but I just don't feel at home here, I guess. And given that I've lived here for almost my entire life, I'd say I've given it an incredibly fair shot.

So it's not that I'm afraid of moving, or afraid of leaving CT. I know I'll miss my family, but the benefits of moving - cost of living, climate, being nearer to N, being in a position I think I will enjoy more than my current position.

The biggest downside...okay, so there are two. First, I obviously of course am anxious about whether or not I'll get the job. Second, if I DO get the job, they want to fill it as soon as possible, which means my time frame on moving - which was originally four months or so - goes down to probably six weeks, maybe? I honestly don't know, and it's a big move, and it's making me batty.

I've tried to organize and pack what I can, but I need to do things like get boxes, and really spend a LOT of time organizing and going through things and throwing stuff out and just paring down as much as I can - figuring out what's important, and what I can just get rid of.

This whole situation is hard, draining, and stressful. Not because I don't want to move or am not emotionally prepared to do so, but because I'm so far from where I want to be - in terms of packing, etc. - that I'm terrified it won't all get done in time. And tonight, there's really nothing else I CAN do, because I'm out of boxes and utterly overwhelmed.

And on top of that I'll also have to do the whole finding an apartment thing which is terrifying simply because it's so far away and plane tickets aren't cheap and yikes!

Amazingly, I'm happier than I have been in a very, very long time.

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warriorartist
Aug. 27th, 2010 02:04 pm (UTC)
well, i knew everything except that last bit, i think... i do hope you're not planning on just swanning off without hanging out one last time ...
brightdreams
Sep. 1st, 2010 11:00 pm (UTC)
Of course not. :) I fully intend on hanging out at least once more with people here before I leave! I'll let you know more as I know more!
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